delusional genius life is about endless possibilities…

Well? Isn’t that nice?

You know, when I first started into this happy spree, I really thought I was doing myself a big favor. Honestly. I believe it was the best thing in the world... and for a while, it was working!

But then, something happened... it all started going downhill, no matter how positive i remained, it forced itself unto me... what is a man to do. Well actually nothing, you fight it, you resist it, and give it your best not give in, keeping the hope alive that it will all get better again. Because you know that it will.... i know it will...

Now here's the thing: it did. It did get better, and i started getting better myself, feeling better, more in tune.

That's not why i am writing though, and you guessed it didn't you? i am writing this particular entry because once i did get in tune, there it was, the "Coup de Grace" (or should I say Coup de Garce for the French speakers of you). The killing blow could not have come at a worse time and yet a great time.

here's the truth i wanted to share: let go of those positive thoughts and what not... life is not about negative and positive in the absolute sense but rather in the relative sense:

WHAT YOU FIND POSITIVE, WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIGHTER AND PUTS YOU IN A POSITIVE MOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS POSITIVE. ALL ELSE IS NEGATIVE.

i hope you are not gonna be offended by the caps up there, but i want to drive the message home. It is about you and only you... there are no universal positives... and the sooner you get to grips with it, the sooner you will find your happiness.. do not lie to yourself... if you are a straightforward "prick" (much like me) then go ahead. like attracts like.... lie to yourself, you will attract people who lie to themselves and you!

There, i let it all out... and i feel much better... thank you for your time, i appreciate it.

cheers,

Marc