delusional genius

Early on in our lives, boys have something of a dislike to girls, we don’t like them, we don’t want to play with them, and simply put we don’t want them around us. However, at one point in our lives, around those teen years, we discover what i will refer to as “genital motion”. in other words, erections. Yes, it is that time when we look with wonder at our genitals as they suddenly stand proudly from between our legs, offering up a strange feeling. Eventually, we understand this is caused by looking at young women. Now some, might keep a certain dislike for women, while others quickly embrace the phenomenon and start looking forward to spending more and more time with girls. That is called, sexual curiosity.

From then on, life changes permanently. We (males) can’t stop thinking about women, we like them, we want to play with them, and simply put we want them around us. Again, this applies to most people. Thus does the miracle of relationships begin. I say miracle, for there truly is nothing stranger and more confusing than wanting to be with one another.

It is said, and adopted by many as pure fact, that “women are from venus and men are from mars”. I have never fully understood why, but… to a certain extent it is true. We are very different. Differences exist between each and every individual, but even more so, between men and women. Nonetheless, we want to be in a relationship with one another. We long for it, we seem to desperately need it, to the extent of it becoming somewhat of an obsession. Why?

It is also seen as strange, and sometimes wrong, to not be in a relationship, or not want one. You should have it. You can not possibly consider being single and alone. Which is basically why many relationships fail. And yet, we remain hopeful, forever searching for our “soul mates”. For there can be only one. Or so we are made to believe. This is made easier to accept when you look at the many successful relationships. So many people are actually happy. They must be doing something right!!!

So what am i saying? what am i trying to achieve from the aforementioned blabber? Just a small point of view:

Relationships are the driving force behind the success of all those we admire most in our lives. Relationships are the energy of our lives. And we should not get into them. We should avoid them like the plague. Unless…. unless it just happens. think about that for a second, please take a moment. “Unless it just happens”. Did you think about it? good! If you let things happen, whichever relationship you get into, will drive you to your success and uttermost achievement. If you let it happen, it will give you wings (try not to think redbull). If you let it happen, it will surely be the greatest event of your life.

Too many times we try too hard, we push for things even when it is painfully obvious, just how wrong and bad the outcome will be. Like a doe caught in the headlights of an oncoming truck, this will be the person we want to be with, and we are the deer prancing towards her… the TRUCK IS COMING… Regardless of the loud horn, we seem helpless to stop moving…. When the truck hits, it will be the visual representation of a relationship failing. We change our very being for the sake of a relationship… which in itself destroys our very essence and with it, all chances of success.

But what do i know? I am just a guy still searching for my soul mate… i just hope the road is clear.

Marc Khoury
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That took some guts….

The initial thought i got, when i saw the book on display was: not another one!! although i must admit, the title was catchy, and the page i opened was interesting. so why did i not buy it? probably because of the many self-help and inspirational books out there, that are just plain silly. i did however, buy it eventually. hence the review.

the book is a 10 minute read (considering many people’s average reading speed), it contains many photos for those of you who are verbose intolerant, and enough words to satisfy those of you who consider themselves thirsty for knowledge. DO NOT LET THAT FOOL YOU. just because it is a 10-min thing, does not mean it lacks the depth and insight you would expect from such books. it actually has more power than most other books i have read in a long time.

in short the book, written by a master of the creative industry, provides the quick lessons it would take us years to learn; it does so, with wit and easy flowing examples. almost nothing is without real life examples and that makes it all the more interesting to read.

Who is this book for? Everyone. Anyone. All those interested in taking charge in their lives and achieving their own version of success are best served through the reading of this book. You’ll want to read it over and over again, and since it is a fast read, that would not be a problem to anyone.

If you ever do read it, drop me a line and tell me which is your favorite thought of them. Mine was the one about decisions. here’s the amazon link.

Amazon.com: Whatever You Think, Think the Opposite (9781591841210 …

We are who we are and driven by passion we sometimes be
Though fear might creep in, and in darkness drown us
We remain for the most part in our dreams so very free
i am thankful for the dreams i have had so far
but none so much as the one i had last night
as soon as into deep slumber i slipped i found myself in a car
driving fast with no sound at all, the wind blowing in my hair
i screamed of happiness but no voice came out.

But suddenly i stopped, and stood outside as the world spun out of control,
i turn around and there she was the woman of my dreams.
i wish i could say i dreamt of her all my life, but truth be told, it was my first time.
all turns black but i and her, as walk towards each other we did.
the first sound came, faded in, the soft beating of my heart urging me towards her.

I walked and so did she, for an endless time without ever reaching each other.
i spoke a thousand words but none were heard, and still i stumbled.
her face, her hair, her eyes, her body… it all moved towards a center that seemed located in me
i trembled, i breathed, i stopped, as suddenly upon me she was.

Her whispering voice, so sweet and soft, flew into the void,
my eager ears reaching out to feel that smooth embrace.
the words did reach, and my mind did fear,
for now, i know who she be, and why she’s here.

“fear not my love, it is not time, for you or me, to be wed in bliss,
but time will come, when you and me shall forever share this bed,
floating in darkness or sinking in light, hand in hand towards the end,
the eternal kiss you shall receive, but tonight, i simply check upon thee”

Marc Khoury
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as dusk was fast approaching, there was a little mosquito preparing its wings for flight. it was nothing unusual: the stretching exercises to avoid aches tomorrow, evasive maneuvers ensuring a longer life span and most important, the extension and breathing exercises to make sure the suction process happens clean and fast.

“tonight i will start before it is completely dark, get a head start on all the others”, thought the little mosquito, and with that buzzed itself into life.

there was a soft breeze blowing, but enough warmth to make it safe for our blood-sucker, and a breeze is always good, because it sometimes numbs people’s senses. with that in mind, the mosquito kept thinking all sorts of inspiring quotes, cheering itself to a night of success.

and boy did it feast, so much in fact, that it now needed to rest somewhere, because flight became too difficult due to the extra weight. drunk with blood, it found its way to the bathroom, with not a single ounce of regret or compassion, for the man whose sleep was disturbed during the feeding process.

the night was safe… and the mosquito went into some of the sweetest dreams it ever dreamt of, until it was shocked into waking by a sudden burst of light. the man has woken up.

it flew to a better hiding place, knowing that humans, upon waking have weak eyesight. going through his usual morning ritual, the man took no notice to the bug on the wall behind him… until he got into the shower.

as he turned around, enjoying the jet of hot water massaging his head, he saw it. standing there on the wall, stuffed black with his blood. the culprit was there for the taking and all was needed was a moment’s action.

SNAP!

one step close to the wall, one quick bursting movement of the hand, smashing the mosquito onto the wall. full of pride, he left it there as a trophy of his victory over the blood sucker. a few moments later, his celebration took a bigger turn. due to the steam from the hot water, the blood started trickling down the wall.

the wall is clean now, and no trace of the mosquito or it’s brethren for that matter. but that my friends, was the story of the mosquito that bled to death.

Here we are, at the dawn of the 21st century, and we still witness the cruelties and ugliness of war due to some over greedy, over idiotic politics ruling the world. yet, within it all, from within really, seems to be rising a wonderful star, this is the new world order i wish for everyone.

A friend of mine has shown me Playing For Change the movement, and some of their videos. These guys are just amazing. the concept, quite simple, uniting the world through music. take a moment and visit their site, after which i hope you will join the cause… i sure have. Their URL is: http://www.playingforchange.com and here’s a video from their youtube channel. Enjoy!

Marc

You know, when I first started into this happy spree, I really thought I was doing myself a big favor. Honestly. I believe it was the best thing in the world… and for a while, it was working!

But then, something happened… it all started going downhill, no matter how positive i remained, it forced itself unto me… what is a man to do. Well actually nothing, you fight it, you resist it, and give it your best not give in, keeping the hope alive that it will all get better again. Because you know that it will…. i know it will…

Now here’s the thing: it did. It did get better, and i started getting better myself, feeling better, more in tune.

That’s not why i am writing though, and you guessed it didn’t you? i am writing this particular entry because once i did get in tune, there it was, the “Coup de Grace” (or should I say Coup de Garce for the French speakers of you). The killing blow could not have come at a worse time and yet a great time.

here’s the truth i wanted to share: let go of those positive thoughts and what not… life is not about negative and positive in the absolute sense but rather in the relative sense:

WHAT YOU FIND POSITIVE, WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIGHTER AND PUTS YOU IN A POSITIVE MOOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS POSITIVE. ALL ELSE IS NEGATIVE.

i hope you are not gonna be offended by the caps up there, but i want to drive the message home. It is about you and only you… there are no universal positives… and the sooner you get to grips with it, the sooner you will find your happiness.. do not lie to yourself… if you are a straightforward “prick” (much like me) then go ahead. like attracts like…. lie to yourself, you will attract people who lie to themselves and you!

There, i let it all out… and i feel much better… thank you for your time, i appreciate it.

cheers,

Marc

Don’t get on my back just yet! read me out!

You see, it is no secret that I have major issues with organized religion… but this is something I have even more problems with! You see the pope, as representing the church, has declared the usage of condoms contrary to God’s will… the same for all manners of contraception… if you are to have sex, it should be for the sake of reproduction… do not under any circumstance oppose that will, and therefore no condoms (we will leave the others aside for now)…

And so, as I was pondering the reasons why the pope would say such a thing, it suddenly dawned on me… a flash of memory… seeing the pope here, or on TV parading and saying hi to the people… much like a beauty queen… but he was being driven in a very… extremely… expensive bullet proof car… he’s in a bullet-proof box… CAN YOU SEE THE HYPOCRISY?????

This is what I refer to as the Papal Condom… this box… i mean… where’s the faith??? you’re supposed to be the father of the church… it’s biggest representative… the most devout of Christians… and you are wearing a condom???? what the @#$%?

Now some might argue that if it is God’s will for the pope to die or be killed, it will happen regardless of bulletproof boxes… to which i answer… if God’s will dictates that I have children every time I enjoy a night of sex with someone… it will happen regardless of condoms or any other form of contraception…

If you would kindly, therefore, abstain from criticizing my life, or even dictating the methods by which I should live, until you rid yourself of your Papal Condom…

Standing on top of a hill, existence spreading all around me, I smile!
As life flirts with my senses, a powerful energy rushing through my veins, I laugh!
Witnessing everything in its glory, a magnificent dance of thoughts exploding, I love!
Releasing myself, losing control and floating around in peace, I live!

I open my eyes and see the eternal waltz of Shadow and Light as they joyfully color the world,
I open my ears and hear the world’s heartbeat, as life celebrates all around me,
I take a deep breath, inhaling the magical essence of the world, unseen, unheard, unfelt!
I close my eyes, touch the ground and am overwhelmed by the vibrations of humanity.

As I am intoxicated by this mystical explosion of the world’s spirit, I miss you my friend!
I think about the times we spent together, and how many happy moments we had,
I remember all of the emotions we have been through together, and I smile.

I smile, for though I might have seen you but a few moments ago, I miss you already!

I miss you already, for this sensory orgasm is but an empty experience, until I share it with you!

To wake up every day with a smile,
To smile through the pains of life,
To live, fully, happily, satisfyingly,
To never be alone!

That is what I wish for you!

Marc Khoury
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Happiness – that ever elusive prize. We spend a lifetime trying to attain it, yet somehow never really getting it. Never realizing that all this time, what we are looking for lies calmly and safely within.

I sought it out, with all my might, in everything and everyone, and could not see it, could not find it anywhere. It was frustrating, to say the least, and yet for some reason, I kept looking, kept on searching.

At some point, I did give in. I let go of what I considered a hopeless goal, after all, society told me so, told me to let go of my foolish dreams and follow the sound of reason, their reason. And I did.

A mere content ensued, and I thought it was the closest I would get to being happy, that maybe, just maybe following the road that so many have taken before me, would lead me to a happiness. They could not be all wrong. Can they? But something happened, somewhere deep within, I felt a crack. Something broke I feared, and automatically, I searched deep within to find it and mend it.

What I found surprised and terrified me.

I found myself, looking back at me, with a fiery glare. Anger in my own inner eyes was glowing brighter than the sun at its peak, and slowly I walked towards myself. I was mesmerized, and could not look away. The harder I tried the harder it became. I soon was standing right in front of myself, and felt a heat, a fire reaching out to grab me.

The terror grew to panic, and I was frozen in place. The flame took hold of me, grabbed my throat, stifling any attempt to cry out for help, and my blazing self spoke softly into my flabbergasted, wide open eyes.

“I sat here in the dark, waiting a lifetime for you to call me out, and all you did was keep me in the shadows. I have waited patiently for you, but no more. You will heed my call. You will do my bidding, and you have no option, no choice.”

The flaming grip relaxed enough for me take a deep, warm breath, and I knew from the look on my face, that I was expected to answer. It is thus that the words came out of my mouth, fleeting words that I seemed unable to control. In disbelief at what I was saying I replied:

“Speak, and I shall listen.”

A smile on my fervent self did not comfort me, until I spoke:

“You will follow your heart, your passion. You will make your message known to the world, and will do so regardless of the fear. Come what may, you will always be happy.

Happiness is not a journey nor is it an end. Happiness is simply a state of mind. A state of mind that you shall not replace for anything, under any circumstance. You will go forth, and achieve that which is your innermost self. I will be brought out.”

My throat was now released completely, and I was expected to yet again speak my mind:

“I know I have a passion for the arts, but what am I to do? What about money? What about making a living for myself in order to be able to sometime, down along the way, have a family?”

The fire in my other eyes grew ablaze, the grip back on my throat, and with anger my other self said:

“It is not about finding a job that provides you with money, but finding a way to make money from your passion. The ideas are there, dormant in your mind, some you already have thought about, and you will execute them.
The journey will be tough, and you will be criticized by many out there who believe such a vagabond life to be insane and wrong. You will disregard them. You will dismiss such negative thoughts and move on. Past the pain, past the tiredness, past the doubt.”

Back out of my mind, my heart beating fast, I finally found the truth. I had to seek it deep within myself, but I found it. My way of being happy. The life that I always dreamed of.

What you want is deep within you, waiting patiently. I was lucky to have it get angry enough to call me in, grab and shake me awake from this slumber. Do not wait for that luck. Dig deep into yourself, and call yourself out, face yourself, and have a long, honest discussion. It will be terrifying, believe me… but most worth it.

You see, I have decided to live the vagabond life. To chase my dream, and be happy enjoying the journey I am about to embark on. It scares me at times, but I quickly dismiss these thoughts, replacing them with hope. The hope, that tomorrow will be just as sweet as today is.

My vagabond wish to all of you chasing your dream:

May you be as happy as a child chasing a kite along the green grass of the prairies.
May you laugh with excitement with every new day.
May you sleep like a baby with not a worry on your mind.

Marc Khoury
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Important Notice: You are free to use this text, in full or in part, at your own discretion, all i ask in return is that you give me due credit for my writing, and a copy or reference to where it was used. Any offense is completely unintended, and i would like to take this moment to apologize for any.  Should you wish to be removed or added to this mailing list (if you were forwarded the mail) then simply email me with your request, and i shall be glad to comply.